Whatami?

2024 

In this project, I explore the plasticity and ephemerality of the self. My state during an identity crisis that I experienced during forced emigration at the age of 37.
In 2022, I found myself in a space where my beliefs, skills, and self-perceptions lost their relevance, and my reality turned into a viscous substance — where the old supports no longer exist and new ones have yet to form, making self-actualization seemingly impossible.
The question I am trying to answer is: What is the self? What am I made of? Where do my boundaries end? And what of what I used to call myself is truly the self? Does the self I assign such importance to, and try to embed into reality, really exist in the present moment?
In the video art piece “What Am I?” a figure made of clay dissolves in water, gradually losing its individuality, expressiveness, facial features, and then its human form, turning into a shapeless, murky cloud.